It’s quiet now. The lights are dim. And as always, the night brings the thoughts I couldn’t finish during the day. Some soft. Some sharp. Some still circling in my chest.
🌙 Table of Contents
- 🍬 The Candy Moment
- 😊 The Quiet Things That Made Me Smile
- 🔁 I Can’t Stop Thinking About It
- 🙏 A Small Prayer Before Sleep
- 💤 What I Hope to Dream
🍬 The Candy Moment
My little sister picked out my favorite candy today — it was for me, for tomorrow. But she cried after. I got mad, and I pinched her… then told our mom. And mom said, “Give it to your little sister.”
- I felt selfish
- I felt like a bad kuya
- I also just wanted to be seen and appreciated
😊 The Quiet Things That Made Me Smile
Thinking about someone who might like me at school… it made me feel warm today. That, and knowing my systems were working — Konekt running smooth, no errors. Everything felt calm, even just for a while.
🔁 I Can’t Stop Thinking About It
That crush thing — I can’t shake it off. It’s weird. Not scary, just… stuck in my brain. I keep replaying what happened. How it felt. What it could mean. My chest feels light and heavy at the same time.
🙏 A Small Prayer Before Sleep
Dear God, thank you. For the quiet moments, even the confusing ones. I don’t always understand them, but I’m learning. Please watch over me. Please let me rest in peace — inside and out.
💤 What I Hope to Dream
I hope I dream of being safe. Being held. A room with no noise, no fear. Just me, warm, comfortable, and finally still. That would be enough for tonight.
This is my late night log. I didn’t write it to impress anyone. I wrote it because my brain needed to exhale. If you’re reading this, I hope you’re safe tonight too. And if not — I hope you will be, soon.
