This one’s just for me. I don’t need anyone to read this. I just need to hear it. From me, to me — no filters, no noise. A letter to the part of me that’s still trying, still scared, still hoping I make it.
🪞 Table of Contents
📦 Dear Future Me
Hello, self. You reading this right now — I hope you’re still holding on. Because today, I made a promise: we *will* succeed. Even if it takes time. Even if we feel alone. I’m still here, still learning, still waking up with purpose.
- We’re still going to school — still learning new things
- I won’t let you down
- And I hope… you still talk to yourself like this, too
📚 What I Learned Recently
I’ve been learning a lot — about myself and the world. I finally understood Chinese Mandarin. And I picked up new programming languages: C and C#. I didn’t think I’d get this far. But I did. And I’m proud of that.
- Languages are tools — and I’m adding them to my power
- Growth doesn’t need to be perfect to be real
🛡 What I Want to Protect
I want to protect my peace. My softness. My energy. I’ve been through too much to give that away again. So I’ll take care of myself. I’ll eat, rest, create — and ignore anyone who tries to make me feel smaller than I am.
- Not everyone deserves access to my mind
- I choose what I let in now
- Protecting myself is not selfish — it’s survival
🔍 What I’m Scared to Face
I’ve been avoiding something. Not because I don’t care — but because I care *too much*. I’m scared of making people sad. I don’t want anyone to feel pain because of me. So sometimes… I stay silent. But silence hurts me, too.
- It’s not my job to carry everyone else’s sadness
- But I still feel it anyway
- I’m learning to speak even when it shakes
This isn’t a goodbye post. This is a *stay-alive* post. A “keep going” post. If future me is reading this — hey, I believe in you. I really do. You’re not broken. You’re just building. And I’m proud of you already.
